(NOTE: Inspired by a journal about past events, does NOT reflect the present.)
HOLYSHITBALLSWHATISTHISLIFEHOWCANANYTHINGBETHISGOOD.
Girl likes me too.
ME TOO.
I was brave (or slightly brash?) and told Girl I know she likes Girlfriend, that I know Girlfriend likes her, and that it is a weird thing because I like Girl too, and never expected to experience my crush and the love of my life be into each other.
Then Girl said some things I understood to mean…
THAT SHE FEELS THE SAME WAY ABOUT ME.
ME.
Meeeeeeee…
And I said “Wait, what?” and stood there gaping at her, because I am cool and classy like that.
She likes us BOTH, both of us. Not just Girlfriend, me too. ME too. I am included.
And we both like her, so isn’t this the most delightful thing? The most wondrous happening ever?
We feel like the home Girl has never had, the love she has never experienced, the soulmates she has been waiting for. And whatever it is we are going to become, whatever path this takes, however much time we have to be in each other’s orbit, how can it be anything but glorious?
So this is the Universe, this is divine orchestration, this is perfect timing, this is what trust got me, this is the bliss already here! So quick! The miracle has occurred!
Thank you for bringing her into our lives
Thank you for our trio and our magic and our connection
Thank you for this beautiful gift
(NOTE: To Past Angela’s grand show of gleeful naivety I say “HahahahahHAHAAAAAAAA, you FOOL!” But not really, because I love her. And she was just so full of hope. To this day I do not quite understand why Girl ever suggested she felt anything for me, because, as you will soon see, there was zero truth to it. Maybe it was self-preservation? Maybe she saw me as a threat, an obstacle between her and Girlfriend, the person that could end it all? And attempted to secure her place by saying she liked me too (which was mighty effective in the moment)? I don’t know. I probably will never know, and that is okay.)